The Affinities of Orpheus (1976)

The Affinities of Orpheus

by Edwin Honig (1976)

Through You

Glass I’ve wanted to live
through you
to be returned to me so

I’d drink the light I see
where you live
in a time you’ll always be

without knowing I am
watching me
appear there in you when

wishing not to be ends
with your silent
Now walk through me

Orpheus Below

A Verse Play in Four Scenes

 

CAST

 

Orpheus

Eurydice

Pluto

Hermes

Chorus, three men and three women

Antichorus, three men and three women

 

Scene I: On the way to Pluto’s kingdom

 

Orpheus. While I live she lives.

She belongs to me.

Chorus. She belongs to no one.

She is with Pluto now,

lord of eternal sleep.

Orpheus. She belongs to me.

In my breath she lives,

in my heart she sings,

in my eyes she walks

the earth still.

Chorus. She who was dear to you

is a ghost of memory —

memory, the stage

where the dead walk,

seeming to belong

to someome briefly —

responding to our words

and to our bidding,

greeting the light

that seeks them out

until we who need them —

frightened, yearning,

hungry, shining — slip off,

and memory goes down

the same dark hole with us.

Orpheus. She lives in me. She is not dead.

Chorus. Good — then she will live

in you a while.

Your striving now

will some day strangely help you

to relieve the pain of grief.

Orpheus. I cannot abide your words:

empty, careless customary words,

words of no feeling.

Chorus. Our words bring you

no personal balm.

Death’s custom does not change.

Words comfort the comforter.

The mourner goes uncomforted.

For him the death of one

becomes the death of all.

No one can break his grief

but the cherished one he seeks.

Orpheus. Grief? I do not grieve. She lives.

I’ll bring her back myself.

Chorus. How will you do it? Tell us.

Orpheus. With my full voice,

with my whole body’s voice.

(He begins a high vigorous chant as the scene shifts and the

dead appear: the Antichorus, male and female, half reclining

as if being embraced by an absent lover. They may move

slowly, though not mournfully, in response to his song.)

Orpheus. Life is the animal

of the world.

More than all

of us alive,

more than all

of us dead,

each of us

ever born

has only been

one eyeblink

of the animal

of the world.

(Chorus comes to the fore, dividing itself in half, male and female.)

Female Chorus. The end, the physical end:

the last days, beginning of absence.

Moving back to the last days you see

the tightening and loosening of body.

The body, the pressures, the hundred

delicate maneuverings, the sweat,

the pain, the flash and falling

of spirit, the failing.

Watching the body

fighting the self,

pressing, impressing

its own isolation.

Before the departure,

an absence already begun.

Male Chorus. Dogged by the need to rebound,

to measure, explain — some message

to lighten the brain — to tell

why the flagging body,

known to you for so long,

unravels, unhinges,

slips off its life,

to float away in the dark.

Female Chorus. Now her face finds your eyes

without moving her own;

sees you at last,

but sees you too steadily

to see you at all.

Behind the window of pain

you are left outside.

Male Chorus. Between living and dying

the gap slowly widens.

Female Chorus. Who comes between

to end the deceit?

Male Chorus. A dark shaping creature.

Female Chorus. The sole self moving,

unmoved, irreducible.

Male Chorus. Dark creature alone

each of us bears

from birth until death.

Female Chorus. Unclearly known,

barely acknowledged,

rarely engaged.

Chorus. The still steady mover

of life’s ongoingness.

Male Chorus. The end, and you see her

totally changed.

The end after hours

of furious breathing,

the color leaving her face,

a deep blood flush

creeping through her scalp,

the lowered breathing —

the animal rasp.

Female Chorus. One self-emptying gasp —

and you breathe in her mouth,

her mouth returning it twice

with breaths no longer her own,

before going still.

Male Chorus. Her thin loose arms

you try to rub.

They are cold.

Female Chorus. Her limp wet mouth,

her cheeks cold as meat,

the life pressed out.

Male Chorus. There is her head,

composed on the pillow:

your last look turning away

from the open door.

Female Chorus. No longer herself,

her quiet profile

strangely unchanged,

yet completely another.

Male Chorus. As someone asleep

who sleeps so fast

she is no longer herself.

Female Chorus. The delicate line

of the nose badly stretched,

making it seem almost hooked.

Male Chorus. Her wide mouth gaping

flabby, unbreathing.

Female Chorus. Her yellowing face.

Male Chorus. Her life —

Female Chorus. — gone out.

Male Chorus. Gone out of life.

Female Chorus. What is the self, the sole self,

barely known, and rarely engaged?

Male Chorus. Our only being.

Without it we misunderstand

our love, our despair, our linked

belonging one to another.

Without it we miss knowing

we are who we are.

One life strikes up

in response to another’s,

like music.

A singular weight

impresses the stream

of all consciousness

passing now

into forever,

passing forever.

Without it we are nothing —

less than a carrot, a dog.

Female Chorus. Unburdened when known,

it moves freely,

touching all, of which

it is never a part.

Male Chorus. Subsisting in things

it has touched

as if saying, “I am

totally in but not of it.”

Female Chorus. While shaping the form

it is making in order to be.

Male Chorus. One form still forming,

unknown till the end,

coming clear briefly.

Female Chorus. Seen and felt by another,

watching in terror, in love.

Male Chorus. As a tide washes in, washes out.

Female Chorus. As a sigh of spirit achieved.

Male Chorus. As a life momentarily fixed,

glimmering clear,

beyond life’s urgencies.

Female Chorus. Finding its shape at last.

Male Chorus. Between living and dying,

the gap slowly widens.

Who comes between

to end the deceit?

Female Chorus. A dark shaping creature.

(The voice of Orpheus breaks out, repeating the song

“Life is the animal. “)

Life is the animal

of the world.

More than all

of us alive,

more than all

of us dead,

each of us

ever born

has only been

one eyeblink

of the animal

of the world.

I sing the animal

of the world.

(Chorus reassembles, as before, while Antichorus, comprising the
dead, comes
together opposite.)

Antichorus. Art is his weapon

against immortal death.

Chorus. Art is his defense

of all life’s beauty.

Antichorus. Man wishes to forget

the life he lives.

So much of what he lives

is pain and groveling.

Chorus. Pain is beauty’s animal

and shares with him

all life’s changes.

Antichorus. If this were so,

death would not matter,

life would not matter.

Art would have no subject.

Chorus. There is only life,

the only subject for song.

Antichorus. His song denies the gods

and scorns eternal life.

Chorus. Eternally his song

honors the life of man.

Antichorus. A blasphemy that men

never will forgive him.

Chorus. All women need him.

There is the wife he trusts

his art to resurrect.

Antichorus. Through her his art is spent —

his final punishment.

Chorus. Through her we see all women

rise up to worship him.

Antichorus. Desiring him in body’s madness,

as their husband,

their one common god,

they will tear his flesh,

they will break his limbs,

they will crush his manhood,

they will devour him.

(Antichorus divides, male and female, to sing this ballad.)

Male Antichorus. Let me take you in my arms.

Death must make love bloom.

I can quiet all your qualms.

Death is life’s bridegroom.

Antichorus. Over and over the leaves of clover are plucked, again and again in vain.

Female Antichorus. I let you come in one night,

worm into my room.

Love died in the daily light.

Death bulged in my womb.

Antichorus. Over and over the leaves of clover are plucked, again and again in vain.

Male Antichorus. I drop you, your taste is gall.

Love has had its way.

Death dumps clutching lovers all

into the light of day.

Antichorus. Over and over the leaves of clover are plucked, again and again in vain.

(Enter Orpheus. Seeing Antichorus for the first time, he approaches them
curiously. As he addresses them, each successively turns away slowly.)

Orpheus. Who are you in that gown with drooping breasts,

like the painted mother of a woman I once knew?

She warned me against seduction of the senses

through music and poetry. Her daughter died.

The mother trailed me till she grew mad.

You’re silent now. Why do you turn away?

 

And this one here, grinning for his pay.

I can remember him. He served me once.

He holds up his two stumps of arms

to show me where the hands were lopped

for stealing something from me once.

Strange, I can’t remember what he stole.

 

Can this be the loose-lipped girl

with hollow eyes, the one who filled

my waking dreams when I was a boy,

who still trembles for her chastity?

She sways as though her great wet eyes

will drag her to the ground. She falls away.

 

And you — who are you with that face

so empty and immense that only

to approach you makes me want to drown?

Your silence deafens, like the traffic

of a city vanishing in time.

Who or what are you? How you stand your ground!

(Antichorus fades away with his last words while Chorus replaces them at his side.)

Orpheus. Why are they here?

They steal my breath!

Chorus. Your memory wakens them

when you are in despair.

They thrive in misery,

flooding your mind.

Orpheus. I am done with ghosts.

My mind must light her image

till it sing Eurydice awake.

Chorus. You will have to go

where death walks endlessly.

He must let you enter freely.

No man has ever gone so far.

Orpheus. I am that man — my song will do it!

Chorus. How? Do you know the way?

Orpheus. Through me to her the way lies open.

This is what I know.

(On upper stage Eurydice appears, loosely veiled, as a kind of promise.
Light pours 
down on her.)

Orpheus. See now, she lives! She’s here!

Where I am she is with me, living!

(Eurydice makes vague motions, as if to summon him; then in a burst of
menacing
and erotic music, she vanishes.)

Chorus. We are amazed. You are mortal,

yet you open the way to death,

which only those who die can know

and know once only — on their death.

What is it in you makes you know?

Orpheus. I cannot tell you how I know.

Can I tell you how I breathe?

To sing I must know such things

and yet not know them overmuch.

Knowing the way is open, I

must bring her back, or I die.

Chorus. If she is not already dead,

then she will die. You too may die.

Orpheus. You buzz like flies around

a honeypot. Leave me.

Chorus. Leave you? You keep us here.

Unless you die,

we cannot leave you

nor can we go beyond you.

If you know the way lies free,

go beyond us,

and there, alone,

find the stranger in the dark.

(Chorus fades gradually away from Orpheus.)

Orpheus. In the dark I know him.

He is darkness

filling silence

till he owns it all.

A wide opening of nothing

that devours every thing.

Fear and joy together

lie down in his arms and die.

I alone am his undoing.

I shall be his undoing.

When he took Eurydice,

all night he breathed against my eyes.

His darkness almost swallowed me.

In his darkness I could drown.

He walled her off from me all night.

All night her cold sweat trickled

down my thighs.

I felt his weight move down on her,

I felt his black tongue move all night,

stoppering her mouth.

All night, all night

my body bruised, my bones were sore.

I turned to her, her breathing stopped.

The dark had swallowed her.

 

I alone am his undoing.

I shall be his undoing.

 

I awoke. Eurydice was gone.

I awoke alone. A welling up

of blood rocked my body still.

My sex became a stone.

I saw the door half open —

through the doorway

sunlight bursting.

Sunlight sang me back alive.

Whoever left the door ajar

had let the sunlight in.

Now the song the sunlight sang

is this song I sing.

It will be his undoing.

 

I alone am his undoing.

I shall be his undoing.

 

(In a dazzling light and at the same burst of erotic music as before,
Eurydice reappears, descending, smiling, toward Orpheus, who remains fixed, concentrated, his back toward her.)

 

Blackout

 

Scene II In Pluto’s kingdom

 

Pluto. I say put him through this thing the hard way.

Let him drag along on wounded legs,

his guts torn open like a crippled dog,

all the way downhill on his belly.

Hermes. Come on. He’s a magician: Orpheus,

poet-musician, darling of the gods.

For him it has to be a special lark.

Sweating’s only for heavyweights like Hercules.

Pluto. I don’t see it. If he doesn’t suffer,

what good is it to him — being in hell?

Tear him apart is what the thing must do.

Hermes. You’re fond of bloody messes. I’m not.

You’re talking of religion. Me, I love

the living; apparently you don’t or can’t.

Pluto. Somebody’s got to draw the line between

the living and the dead . . .

Hermes. Why? Why not

let souls spill over so the living can

come down and get to know the place they fear

or bring the dead back for a holiday?

Pluto. Blasphemer! Only gods are glorious

and powerful forever; man himself

is muck, up in a flash, out in a fizzle.

Only a god comes down here and gets back.

Hermes. It’s true, the gods delight to see men wriggle

like worms; it makes them feel superior.

Why else would you have let the poet come

down here to take his wife back? Do you care?

Were you showing off? What if he makes it?

Pluto. Makes it? Isn’t that your job to see

he doesn’t?

Hermes. No, it’s yours. You’re boss. You asked him.

Pluto. His music got me. A weak moment. I still

can’t say just why I promised. — To stop his music!

Unbearable! It made me want to die!

Hermes. That’s amusing — so awfully human! You’re

undead —

I mean, Lord of the Dead, a god, eternal!

Just think, you’ve got to live with you forever!

Pluto. It gets a little fierce here — all the silence.

Then music filled my ears, I went weak,

I guess, and so my head nodded to him.

“Come take her, yes, but only stop the music!”

Silence again. I roared, “But if you look

at her before you reach the light — she’s gone!”

Hermes. Wanting to be alive — meaning undead.

When gods get bored they play at being human,

and right away the pleasure’s too much for them.

They call it weakness and impose the law.

You own the place and keep the score, so tell me,

landlord, isn’t that what hell’s about?

Pluto. Also, you must make sure that he stays put.

You’re responsible for him.

Hermes. But not for you!

Pluto. You’ve got to understand the way things are.

I can’t allow these madmen, poets, prophets,

to hop down here and back. It breaks the law,

and it could kill morale, starting them all

to dreaming the old dream — to live forever!

The dead exceed the living now something

like two million to one. Think of the mischief

if some little man like Orpheus should start

hauling them all back again to earth!

Give him an inch and there’s no stopping him.

Hermes. And who was it, tell me, gave him that inch?

Pluto. But I admit a little weakness. I’m only —

Hermes. Immortal, yes. Also a statistician,

a bigot, prude, and lowest lowdown member

of the establishment. Like me you’re cursed

enough with single-mindedness. At least

I know how huge one human wish can be.

I can perambulate among the spheres.

Pluto. Then you’ll take care of Orpheus for me?

Hermes. I like wild music and the passions. Listen.

(Music bursts through, and Orpheus descends; Pluto immediately retreats.)

 

No Curtain or Blackout

 

Scene III: The same as Scene II

 

(As Orpheus slowly descends, his way ahead is marked by a sharp
narrow blue light. This gradually gives just enough illumination to bring
the Chorus and the Antichorus out of the darkness on opposite
sides. Stage center the figure of Hermes emerges, waiting. Orpheus
stops when he becomes aware of Hermes.)

 

Hermes. Welcome to Death’s kingdom.

Orpheus. (beginning to approach)

I do not know you.

Hermes. I am Hermes. I come to guide you.

Orpheus. (confronting him)

I do not need you.

Hermes. Perhaps not. We’ll see.

Orpheus. (passing him)

I do not want you.

(The blue light dims and goes out. Orpheus stops.)

Hermes. Have you been here before?

You insist you know the way.

Consider, this is not earth,

no halfway place, but hell,

where everything is total.

Darkness is pitch darkness.

Death is stony death.

Orpheus. Until this point my way was lit.

A blue light led me like a hand.

Hermes. Yes, human consciousness

deserves to be displayed here.

You’re living and full-blooded,

a man carrying full tilt a mind,

a soul, and an immense idea.

These need to be lit up.

But you reach beyond a certain point,

and, as you see, that point is here.

Here’s where Pluto reigns,

fanatic keeper of the dead.

He rules beyond the limit

where life contains itself no more,

where breath and all the faculties

no longer function. Except in certain

special cases, they usually stop.

That’s why I’ve been sent to you,

to help you on the way from here,

and lead you living to your dream.

Orpheus. I do not need your guidance.

I go the way I am

through darkness and through death.

My song will give me breath.

(A female member of the Antichorus rushes to embrace Orpheus
excitedly. Again the erotic music. Orpheus looks closely, as if she
might be Eurydice, then turns away. Hermes has not noticed
the interruption. The blue light comes on and sharpens with the first word
of Hermes‘ reply.)

Hermes. Then go ahead, I’ll follow —

leading from behind.

Orpheus. My mouth wells up with song,

yet song won’t lead me to her.

The breath in silence leaving

and re-entering my body

yearns toward her body,

making a song of nothing,

making breath itself enough.

I am a stone against a tree

aching to be that tree —

to grow, to shed its leaves

and sleep, yet never dream

what was or what will be.

In sleep I am that girl I seek,

cradled in our bodies’ love.

Come, love, take away my breath!

(Another female member of the Antichorus breaks loose, as before,
and with a cry embraces Orpheus. The same music and wordless action
follow.)

 

Chorus. You are the harvest of the earth beginning.

Think that alone, in yearning and in growing,

and the fruit drops from the tree.

 

You are the hard ground over deep earth’s longings.

Be that alone, in sleep’s long burrowings,

till the fruit drops from the tree.

 

You are the seed through frozen winter burning

with root love, and with the worm still turning

when the fruit drops from the tree.

 

Antichorus. We taste the ripened pips,

and sweetness bursts our lips.

We crunch the crisp thighbone,

our teeth glinting like stone.

Chorus. What lives must feed on what’s alive.

What’s dead feeds on itself.

If the dead cannot live again,

the still-living may not die.

Yet they do — both things occur.

The dead live frozen in the mind.

The living, though still standing, die

feeding on grief, the dead belief,

bloated with wild memory,

in past beauty die.

Antichorus. Spend yourself, give self away

to death, then think no more, and die.

(echo) and die.

Living for you is past, praise death.

Becoming what you dread, so die.

(echo) so die.

The tree you were became a stone,

believing in stone, though standing, dead.

(echo) standing dead.

(Erotic music mounts, a crashing light, and Orpheus falls; Eurydice
appears at once behind him, glowing.)

Hermes. Orpheus, stand up, she is here.

You must lead her back.

This is what you came to do.

(Orpheus rises, lightly supported by Hermes, who faces
him sideways, where he can see Orpheus and also look toward, though
not at Eurydice.)

Poised behind you now,

she lights up emptiness

like the Venus star.

She is all you thought,

answering your thought,

telling how she came here.

(A silence, then an increasing, heaving, rolling — like waves of death.)

Eurydice. I rode the waves to shore

where I was deposited.

Then I saw the tide withdraw,

the beating roar subside.

I was alone again as when,

ripped from my mother’s blood,

I fell into the breathing world.

Why do I stand waiting again

to learn which way to go,

wondering how to go?

Does the body live or die?

Orpheus. You are all voices filling my mind

when it pleases and is pleased,

yet not one voice I yearn to hear.

Chorus. She is your nature mirrored in a gift.

She is your passion spent and hovering.

She returned herself faithfully to you.

Orpheus. She returns faithfully,

but not herself to me.

Her voice is all voices

cherished by memory,

but not one of them

comes alive to me.

Although I may not see her,

her speech denies her presence.

She is far away, though near.

Hermes. You must not question what

is different or the same.

In your way you have found her,

now lead her away.

Orpheus. What Eurydice is this,

speaking to what I was,

not to what I am?

Chorus. In asking for her

you asked for what

had died in you.

Antichorus. Now die with her.

This is what you sought.

This is why you came.

Chorus. Leave her now.

You no longer

need to have her back.

Hermes. You came for her.

Now lead her back.

Orpheus. First she must speak

in her own voice,

the voice I know as hers,

a voice I can recall.

Until I hear that voice

I sense her presence only,

not her life, behind me.

I did not come to find

a faithful loving ghost.

I came to bring her back,

my fully living wife.

Hermes. Until you speak to her

she has no present life.

Until you lead her back,

her voice is in the past,

remaining all it was

when you saw her last.

Orpheus. I do not want her ghost.

Hermes. Then win her back to life.

Move, and she follows you.

Speak, and she will answer.

(Orpheus moves and starts back, ascending, the blue light pointing
the way ahead. Behind him, slightly to the left, is Hermes, and last,
directly behind, is Eurydice.)

Orpheus. Eurydice, I feel your soundless steps,

your breathless mouth, behind me.

Eurydice. Yes, Orpheus. I follow where you go.

Orpheus. I lead you back to life.

Eurydice. Yes, Orpheus, I know.

Orpheus. Do you want to live?

Eurydice. I do not know how to want.

Orpheus. Do not be afraid.

I will teach you how to want

and how to live again.

Eurydice. If I had fear, it would be for you.

If I had love, it would be for you.

I do not know what feelings are.

I have no sense of pain or sorrow.

Only some memory of knowledge.

I know you called me and I follow.

Orpheus. First and last learn joy again

for all things living in their being.

I bring them back — the taste

of fruit, the leap of animals,

bird-glide and fish-turn,

where water is deep fire,

where all the air embraces earth.

I praise man and the creatures,

I praise the trees, the plants,

I praise the stones,

I praise the farthest star

pulsing in the eye.

Now the night listening

to the word is shriveling.

Eurydice. Won’t the day shrivel too?

Won’t the day, listening

to the word, shrivel back

into the night already shriveling into day?

Orpheus. As I listen, a silence dies

and the word rises, rising

out of my hand to speak.

Where is the silence that lives

on this world, listening?

What listens beyond me?

Eurydice, come follow me!

(As they continue to move, the blue light intensifies.)

Eurydice. I follow you, Orpheus.

Orpheus. (half turning)

Eurydice, I know your voice,

it is your own voice I hear again.

Hermes. Orpheus, take care; turn like that

again, and she is lost to you.

(Shadows begin to appear, moving.)

Orpheus. Eurydice, I know the way

is past these shadows

moving here beyond us.

They are and they are not,

and yet move endlessly.

Eurydice. It is the moving of other people

thinking beyond you,

creating and destroying,

doing the people-things.

You cannot even watch them.

They walk through you.

To them you are invisible.

To them only they move,

they who without knowing it

are invisible too.

Orpheus. Tomorrow we will appear.

Tomorrow for the first time

there will be the sequence

of the living and the dead united.

Together there will be

only the instant meeting

of thought with thought.

Living and dead will be one.

Nothingness will disappear.

Eurydice. Yesterday I remember I was yours.

Orpheus. So you will be again tomorrow

when we rise from this cold night.

Eurydice. Will I remember what I was today

tomorrow? Will this sense

of being nothing, which is all

I am now, except the voice you give me,

return to cover up my mouth?

Orpheus. Eurydice, the voice you say

I give you is yours, not mine.

You will know that in your blood

before you face the light again.

Chorus. Her blood is sluggish, scarcely moves.

Her limbs follow his but only

as if wired to his words.

He knows this well but is too fond

of the remembered flesh she gave his words

to go back to doubting her again.

Orpheus. The light falters. I cannot see.

(Blue light dims.)

Hermes. It is still your light, remember —

your own, to bring you and return.

Chorus. Her new fatigue has wearied him.

Look how his arms fall to his sides.

His drooping head searches the ground

for signs. Sink! say his halted feet.

Orpheus. (straining not to turn)

Eurydice, my wife,

take on my present life!

Eurydice. My body yearns to be dissolved.

Now held together only by

your wish, it washes on my mind

and tugs it down like crumbled stone.

Believe me, Orpheus, each fiber in me

cries out to my blood to stop,

be still, become invisible!

(Female Antichorus moves in a group to block Orpheus, in
attitudes half appealing and half menacing, as if he were their glittering
prey. Orpheus turns away from them.)

Orpheus. I must free her of the past.

Eurydice, my wife,

I give you all my breath!

(Turning back completely, he lunges past Hermes to embrace Eurydice,
and comes away holding her shroudlike garment, empty, in his hand.)

Eurydice’s Voice. Orpheus, rejoice, for I am dead.

I no longer need to rest in you.

Voiceless now I am myself,

the emptiness held in your hand

no longer burdens memory.

Orpheus, you are free to be

the voice you sought in me.

Thank you for my life, my death.

(As Orpheus begins to tear her garment to shreds, female Antichorus
surrounds him, singing.)

Female Antichorus. Life is the animal

of the world.

More than all

of us dead,

each of us

ever born

has only been

one eyeblink

of the animal

of the world.

(Orpheus manages to break loose from them, going upward, where
the light pours forth, but they follow intently, already holding in their
hands parts of his dress: a sandal, his belt, and so forth.)

 

Blackout

 

Scene IV: The same as Scene II

 

Pluto. You think he escaped?

Hermes. You mean she didn’t.

Pluto. Who ever said she would?

Hermes. You pretend,

now that it’s over, you weren’t scared

she would — with your permission too.

Pluto. I swear it won’t happen again.

Hermes. I don’t know. Mortals have a way

of coming back for more once they

have tasted the impossible.

Pluto. Ah, just plain greediness. What else?

Hermes. Pluto, it’s passion leading them astray,

but passion brings on something more

abiding: a growing itch to transcend

empty time and circumstance.

Pluto. Ach, there you go again, blaspheming.

Only the gods transcend. Everyone

knows that. Men are flies. They live

and die between a yawn and sleep.

They just don’t have the grip we do.

Hermes. Pluto, tell me, what brought him here?

— Yes, Orpheus. To this hell hole?

Pluto. Some insane notion that he was

better than the gods, I guess.

Hermes. Oh, use your head. The impulsion’s

got to be a lot more personal

to drive a man down here. Think again.

Pluto. All right: the gods themselves, his music.

You said he was their darling. Well,

it was a trick to put me down.

Hermes. Come, come, Pluto. We all know you’re

tone-deaf. Besides, since when have men

needed the gods except as means

toward a special end? You think

he’d go through hell just to put down

a minor deity like you?

For God’s sake, try to see it his way!

Pluto. What are you getting at? I think

I see your meaning — a woman! You mean

the woman, Eurydice? For her sake?

The maddest thing I ever heard!

Sure, men have got to procreate —

that’s how they keep alive enough

to not mind dying. But with a dead one?

Aren’t there enough live women

up there he could jump on without

killing himself to get a dead one?

Hermes. All right, you’re getting warm — if I

dare use the word about you. Hasn’t

it ever struck you that love and sex

are man’s way to transcend himself?

Pluto. You must be joking. Love and sex?

For bulls and horses! (laughing) No? Yes!

Hermes. Yes, laugh yourself sick over it.

Most gods do. They have no choice.

Thinking yourself immortal you find

the urge to love is just the fault

that makes man mortal, like an animal,

or else the sadly childish way

he has of finding comfort in the dark.

But there’s more to it than that.

Pluto. (still laughing)

More to it than what? What else

but lovely sex? Or sex and love!

Hermes. It’s the end of the gods. Orpheus

will ring the curtain on the gods

because even if he failed to take

his wife back from the dead, he has

opened the way to conquer death.

With love. With art. With life itself.

He’s shown men what’s inside them, what they

can be through what they feel and think,

despite the gods. Men following him

displace the gods, become eternal.

Pluto. (stops laughing, though still shaking)

Displace the gods, will he? And where

d’ye think your little man is now?

(Displaying long swatches of Orpheus‘ torn-out hair, with bloody skin still attached.)

Hermes. Pluto, where did that come from?

Pluto. The women chasing him. They did

a job on him — tore him apart!

You know, and some who missed out on

his feel while he was still alive,

they got to eating him — his rump,

his face, his big male thing, even

his eyes and nails taste good to them.

Hermes. Just sound and fury, a new religion!

Still, how disagreeable!

Devour him, then puff his image

up, and raise him to the skies!

They’ll forget he was a man who used

his brain to undermine the static

hell of dying gods. Now women

make him a god — an antihuman

floating abstract thing, an iceberg

stuck way up in some heaven they

must go down on their knees to worship,

guiltily, of course, since they’ve thrown

their brains away to do it. Sinful,

agh! Do you suppose men love death

more than they love their own lives?

Pluto. Well, he’s dead anyway. You know from what?

(laughing) What did you call it? Lovely sex?

Oh, love and sex! Well, what does that

lead to, tell me, if not to death?

(Hermes turns away; Pluto goes down on all fours, laughing
uncontrollably.)

 

Blackout

SHAKE A SPEAR WITH ME, JOHN BERRYMAN

She’s Yours

Take and button her in

She lies outside waiting

A sort of something

On your mind

Pretending you have

Nothing for her

 

You die to see her straight

But she is always out there

Lingering sideways

About to go

And as she turns to leave

Trembling to be taken in

Lullaby

The eyes you dim for her

Are in her care

She sees with them

As she brightens

Steps out clear

You almost aren’t there

 

You have one hand

She made two

Out of the enemy other

Arms and shoulders

Went with them

Now you don’t need any

 

Without her you’re lame

With her about the same

Ask it and she drops everything

To bring you off

Even curtains the blinking mind

Your star blind basket

Shadow Me You

What hunger hunted for is plain

A sucked out box of aftertaste

Grave of self unselfed

A tongueless mouth

A skull unbrained

Soon to be inhabited

Membered to again what

In the end it would let out

And have to do without

 

Who says all this

Some What

Possibly

An It

That afterward

Is me

Your me

Chucked into

My brain

Ill Be Well

Grave doubts sacked

The poisoned he

Staggering around that

Maimed mass of you

Ready to cave in

When you gave out

You did him in

 

Did he slip you or you him

Who wants to know

All knowing is decline

I read you here where

Now is equilibrium

With me flipped out

You kicking still

What’s True

Rings round here sometimes landing

All light dark before it falls

 

Is that what turns the wind

The wind asks who asks the same

 

The same is oneness’ twin

Failing itself to fall

 

Self remains as light remains

A washed out gall

Seesaw Songs

Poor I came alone

you said

into a world

without me

 

Pure I came with

nothing coupled yet

When I thought

mind married world

 

You spoke

I have a mind

no space holds

I soar where

nothing lands

or was before

 

As you spoke

space held

your mind

slipped between

its jaws

This was all before

 

Mind squared the world

Angles rebounded it

Light became

a fool’s gold then

 

Alighting then it saw

only as sight itself sees

pureness hovering

on mouldy gall

 

Out of darkness then

it came alone

older than darkness

that spread mould

 

Light launched itself

in us till all

that we became

we saw

ANOTHER ORPHEUS

His Chain

How he had made

link after link

his mind to her heart

thinking loosely to join

not to imprison

each to its self

and worlds apart

then when it jarred

he suddenly turned

His Dream

How he had sat

huddled all night

failed faces passing

the narrowing light

the windswept street

watching the fire

die in its ashes

 

How from the ashes

he learned of root forces

the powerful hand

that would crack

the light open

the day he must break

to be born

Another

within this leaf

a life

within this life

a soul

with messages

trees hear

inhere

as we who are

cohere

in what we see

 

while

toward

this tree

this leaf

we

only

may appear

to be

and bear

apart

A Wind Dies

A wind lies down

Nothing in the tree

but frozen space

between the leaves

 

No sound

but underneath

the tree a shadow

strains to feel

the tree is moving

wind in the leaves

still passing

 

A wind has died forever

A tree forever frozen

deepening a shadow

tears itself to pieces

His Song

Speaking in time

of the slow removal

of parts

the whole unspoken

unseen

 

slide-back surmounting

slide-forward

and upward beyond us

no further

than where

 

everywhere centered

is folded

into the down-plunging

circle

working within

 

who-we-will-be moving

within us without us

till brushing each

meets ourselves

in the other

 

moving us toward

each outward one

who is the other

brushing each

into us past

The Silence

Something long past just heard us

and I think whatever it was

heard us before

 

Because as we changed it changed

as we passed it passed

fading behind us

 

All it wanted was to be with us

partaking of all

we enjoyed

 

And suffering when we were

but only to make us aware

we had its support

 

How many coffins have failed

to contain their contents

it would observe

 

Or if too wrapped up in each other

would sigh Wonders assail me

I cannot keep up

 

When we thought we could speak

without marring our own

silent rapport

 

We asked what in the world

we had brought on ourselves

just by being alone

 

Maybe we’d both grown numb

to the feeling of being

alone together

 

On some pretext we parted

wanting the chance of being

untogether alone

 

But remember how sick of the ruse

we got until we just

had to make up

 

And coming back made us

too happy to think at all

Thinking spoils things

 

Then you noticed we hadn’t been feeling

the steady old drain

the presence or loss

 

The dark was all solid darkness

a day so many hours of light

No strange touch or word

 

So that now when you turned you thought

whatever’s outside the window

is surely a bird

 

Whether outside or inside

it surely is listening

and gratefully heard

Her Remoteness

We sat in the lamplight’s quiet estimation

of our wavering unanswered fire, one moment

in our living brimful glass

containing each of us, each as yet untouched,

unbroken, asking, Who

will drink us if we do not drink each other?

And neither of us stirred.

 

*

 

It is a light lingering on a sill

as I lie half-wakened on a summer morning

sunk in the weighted gladness

of my beached body still awash and unreleased

by the dark tide of sleep

till I advance a hand to touch the light and it

withdraws however far I reach and disappears.

After Eurydice

That all may be heard

at love’s dying

sounds leap from his mouth

a nightmare unburdens

joy’s separation

releases a body

watching amazed

 

Anguish returning

earth’s presence

worming it-may-be

into it-will-be

thought seeds shoot out

of the powerful tree

her cold glinting absence

 

Words found for no words

sprout from his mouth

lips and tongue

toe touch and glances

move into being

animal bodies

waking to praise

Melting Song

Fire be Water

 

Hear Fire reply

 

I am Water already

all things you dream of you see

rainfall the tree

perfect limbs drowning

me they become that am you

drifting a breath

burning to Earth

 

Cried the Earth

cried the Air

 

Water be Fire

 

And Water

silently nodded

I am

After Orpheus

Blame me

his heart

a wounded dog

trapped in the woods

returns

 

sits after years

on the bare floor

so still

unbreathing head low

almost stone

 

Blame me

turns slowly

fire leaps higher

birds fall grounded

outdoors

 

Never be sure

blame is some joy

and will die

blameless

as joy is

 

His heart

inching up

to the fire

roars itself

into the sky

Another Orpheus

 

Hear him waken

parades

bell toll

fire gong

 

the sea

never failing

exploding earth

carnival

 

Leave him naked

dazzling

in a room

alone

 

A first holiday

barely turning

he becomes all

one mirror knows

 

His last day

a rope

slaps the rafter

laughter below

 

doors tearing open

a crashing upstairs

love him you

he will never know

Joy: an End Song

I heard joy speak to me

your joy and the time spent

neither wishing nor having it

before it came

after it went

 

I tasted it through you

your joy and the spending of it

the time it was

the being of it

your presence in it

 

What was possible

and what became of it

the loss already known

just as it came

just as it went

 

Knowing your joy

was neither having it

nor having you

but what lay open once

between the two

 

Between the diver

and his breath

the waiting shadow

and the body

lying down in it

ASKING EURYDICE

Who

It is your last day and hour and you are alone

You have nothing to say even to yourself

Your mind is almost blank

A fly is buzzing in the room

You can kill the fly but you don’t Your

thoughts will not move you Without color or

depth they skim across your mind Before you

can read them they disappear

Now after ten minutes or thirty you begin to

hear the sound of words spoken words

You think Who speaks You are greedy

for another sound another presence

Who speaks Who is speaking

It is a half-friendly Who Like your mother

when you were a child Soft round voice with

the querulous edge

The words fade The voice goes over the

edge and disappears

You look around the room It is bare but

things are in it your mind will not name

You look around the room twisting your

neck turning your shoulder

You stoop you kneel you lie down

You get up quickly

The voice with the words opens up again

Who you ask

Be still

Who

Be still be still

A silence grows breaking into the voice

slowly speaking as you listen word quickening

faster more lively

Who

You think It is like my father

No

You think It is like him

Him

Him the other one

No

You think It is like myself in him

Yes

It is coming faster turning the

room turning you on your knees again The

ceiling moves down

Words pour out faster clearer fresher full of

feeling never before spoken words never

heard before out of you

You they say You they say You they say You

You YouYou YouYouYouYou Breaking

loose they surge out of your chest you

pushing to join them till you are all

at once all of them in a long water flowing widening

flooding an ocean sea world all water without

earth or sky a water all over water gone over

forever

Lines for Dancers

Dolls remember

waiting to be born

 

an empty turmoil

in the head

 

the memory

of milk

 

a quiet shifting

in the straw

 

*

 

The body straight

the body folded

then poise

altering the center

the difficult

destruction

of a thoughtless

balance

 

*

 

The sexual body

dropping

in a chair

in bed

under him

on her

 

down

 

and the neutral

wisdom

to rise

again

from broken

stances

 

up

 

*

 

Gesture after gesture

sometimes hardens them

 

the music stops

but nothing can slacken them

 

curled up on their sides

night and day

 

bodies dance to reproduce themselves

with all their might

 

and faces lock

desperate to be blank

Lines for Her Living

She breathed herself out

and breathed back in

what wouldn’t dissolve or float

 

veering off from herself

and in one movement returning

not like a top

but like its spinning

 

herself as a child

herself as a dwarf

an infant a fetus

a mote

 

dancing so fast in our eye

we could see nothing

without her in it

 

*

 

Fighting the need to change

she changed

against letting herself be changed

into a stranger nothing

 

changing herself

but never in time

like the flick of the small fish tail

as the smile of the larger devours it

 

as if cheating the terror

sure to slip into her face

a delicate bladder

deflating in wrinkles

 

living on almost the same

between what she was just becoming

and what she never could be

 

then driving herself

into somebody’s shoes

toe work and furious heel work

stamping it out

like a Spanish dancer

In Afterlight

The night I heard you

limping behind

I thought of a girl

squeezed under by space

forever.

 

In the morning my eyes

lay abandoned

like stones returned

to the beaches

of time.

 

A buzz came from the skulls

of beasts dumped

in the summer ravines

where cupped honey

was making.

 

When I turned to the road

light tipped

my feet and I ran

that way hobbled

for miles.

Now Back Then

If I remember the time

it is wrong

and not like the time itself was

 

remembering that quick

mile-long smile

I was always late picking up

 

If I remember times

you were there

I am there too much when I wasn’t

 

remembering what wasn’t —

maybe it hadn’t come yet

maybe it only just might have

 

If I remember you as you were

the no one you are meets

the no one I was then remembering

 

dancing like snow in a glass

I am holding without

me without you to the end

Eurydice Thought

Barely to be first

is to be another

not oneself alone

that other one who dreams

there is time

that time arrives

when one becomes oneself

filler of time

a message wandering

in search of a recipient

One watches after him

for signs

Has he received it

Until he does

one cannot be

 

*

 

Watching for him

one waits forever

coming neither soon nor late

No one ever ready

no one on time

body fills its bag

wishing its final emptiness

breathes out again

its bubble spit

breathes in again

the sky

He comes at last

and one is gone

 

*

 

Ponder me

I am no longer

what you think

returned for me

eluding you

stuffed in

my midnight

swollen orifice

 

*

 

I remember how you made me wait

hunting yourself

fooled and angering

Folded back and narrowest

when fed by you

I dreamed you would be me

found dead

 

*

 

The mother tree is still

that doubled over winter

broken branches gone

and murder winds now calmed

for heat of leaves to come

considering the surgery

before the hidden fruit

can fall

that breaks the mouth

 

*

 

Break the catch

free time in the throat

God the enemy returns

to see some clearing

after daylong whirlwinds

God let blind fog thin again

into your emptiest

most lucid sky

 

*

 

Spirit

take

place

above

beneath

but

never

be

 

*

 

By morning weights like you

are wakening in bed

in shuddering hills

the bleeding sun

is yet to fill

while I the bond you left

raging in the dark

have never waked

and never slept

Movements of the Appassionata

1

 

Sick-blind with trouble

is the way it always starts.

Spring’s late‹and early too.

Part of the trouble, maybe.

The thought kicks her out of bed at four.

A crackling blue January,

then balmy February yellowing the bushes,

and all the crocuses saluting

when she looks up,

imagination gone black and blue

with sinusitis.

 

March freezes solid.

Nothing walks.

Icicles the hilarious winds click off

stab bushes like excaliburs.

One loony bird escaped alone to tell her,

“Listen, it’s time to live! ”

turns up next day

in the neighbor’s wolfhound’s mouth.

 

2

 

And what’s she to show,

a slowed-down beauty combing

twenty-year-old bluebells from her hair?

“Mother in her fits

reminds me I had two last week.

One nearly drowned the infant

in its basinette,

the other came close to breaking up

my marriage, such as it is.”

So what?

April drips with crazy twitterings,

trucks and loaded vans shift up

the turnpike like crapping hippopotami.

 

3

 

And in the end —

the end that never ends?

“There it goes again,

that tinny tune I hear above the din!

like when they got me down

among the violets and operated,

then months later the therapist (the rapist!)

whistled it, screwing my head back on.

Ah, the Appassionata!

 

Or something like it

I can’t decipher —

a lover’s stroking hand, or maybe

it’s just tucking in my shroud.

Well, hell, I call it Sanity,

so stop turning down your mouth!”

 

4

 

Yesterday a jet landed in the yard,

and the pilot (there were no passengers)

slipped out holding a daffodil,

“I’m the angel Lucifer,” he said:

“What name is that?”

Yes, she stalled for time.

The Prince of fallen light!

 

No use, of course. It had to be.

The angel kissed her mouth,

and pierced her with the daffodil.

The sky went on bombarding

the delicate ear and mind.

Then her ecstasy broke through,

“God,

I’m pregnant with the Lord tonight!”

Beyond Recall